Salam guys!!
I know I sound so excited. 'Cause you know what? I passed year 1 and made to year 2!!! I took a really long time to write this because I wanted to feel this new year vibe, like really enjoying it. The time that I knew about it was so unexpected because I was at home, chilling like a villain. Yes, chilling guys, I wasn't studying.
First off, Alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah. I felt so relieved, so blessed, so happy! Being promoted to year 2 is not something easy, but it wouldn't ever stop me from pursuing medicine if I didn't get promoted. We all feel sad at first, but giving up is an option. It's not the only choice. That's why I was so mentally prepared with failure as I've been there. Nonetheless, with dua and little effort, Allah made it. On the same day, I told my my mom the truth that I failed my first exam. I thought she would be sad of my result but hell no. Yes, she did feel sad but that's because she told me how strong I was to endure that alone, without telling her. Yes babe, I felt so down at that particular moment, I was at my worst, I've no confidence, I was suffering.
You know what? I'm not going to tell her after this too 'cause she'd be worrying sick haha. Now, it's my third day on year 2 and wallahi, it's so hard like I cried literally.... Pbl session was even tougher. I just hope that I'd have enough time to cope with everything and dear brain, please work faster. Pray for me everyone :-)