Feb 23, 2017

crush that crush

HI GUYSSSSSSS. Guess what? I just came back from my night class. And this class is one of my fav ones cause i like this subject and my classmates are funny and cool. You would laugh every single moment cause of their bizarre acts haha. 

But the thing is, Im into GREEN today! yeah cause baby your soul could never grow old as evergreen....... You are ed sheeran to my heart HAHA kidding. So, I wore green today and of course, there's someone who donned in green as well. I mean the exact kinda green, the same tone. U ada? I ada haha.  I was like building my own castle in the air. But theres no prince charming????? LOL

OK i think i fell in love again for the infinity time. haha no. I mean, like in this real world. Come on, Ive so many crush in the tv but it's virtual for me please. But now, it's real. But yea, all i could do is stay quiet and do nothing cause it is the way it is. I like it that way. 

lol im just kidding about 'falling in love' one. I dont know my own feeling but you know, when you meet someone, he would cross ur mind multiple times or they would make a wound in your heart or else he would not leave any scar or mark on you so you gotta be prepared for all these possibilities. Make dua' and don;t lose hope hehe. Assalamualaikum and good night!

Feb 18, 2017

no not this tyme

Assalamualaikum and hi to all!
Yass today is Friday, so it basically means dear-books-pls-get-out-of-my-sight- day lol just kidding. I was called to write here (again?) because I feel like I wanna share this one to you guys. 

Normally, if you like someone, what would you do? I mean, as a woman or as a girl. My answer would be, 

Entahlah. I dont know what should i do. Apatah lagi I'm not sure if he's the one that's meant to be with. 

Yes, I'm still stuck between of 'dont bother' or 'do something'. Haish. But right now, I've been thinking of staying at the place wherever i am. For instance, don't do anything, just don't. Stay at your comfort zone, and let them notice you. HAHAHA crazy is it. 

No, I mean, biarlah kalau kita suka seseorang tu, kita mendiamkan diri. Bukan menunjuk-nunjuk perasaan tu. Ever heard this quote? 

''People who are meant to be together will always find their way back. They make take a few detours, but they're never lost''.

Thus I kinda believe in this one. Walaupun kita suka seseorang tu, rindu, berdoalah agar he's the one. Only Allah can fulfill it. Orang cakap bila rindu, kalau kita cakap dekat dia yang kita rindu, lagi bertambah rindulah perasaan kita. Tapi, bila kita rindu, kita berdoa, insyaAllah makin tenang hati kita.

Jadi, cubalah untuk lebihkan berdoa daripada mendekati mereka. *nasihat untuk diri sendiri juga*. Memang susahkan kalau dah satu kelas, satu kelab contohnya, memang susah nak halang perasaan suka tu. Tapi, apa nak buat. Lets take a chill pill which is salah, quran, zikr and du'a. :)

Dec 23, 2016

3 Days Before Finals

*keep on replaying dirgahayu by faizal tahir and dato siti*

Not a kind of girl who listen to malay songs frequently but what so ever, i started to like it :p Not all, but generally, some are acceptable. And you know, the way faizal tahir sings, oh god, it was such an eargasm. *okay tryna avoid from being so high*.

Well, i am actually running out of ideas of what i wanted to write but i wanted to write so much because i like too. Sorry guys haha. 

There was a time, when you really like someone, but you could not get to know him/her more. It feels like you are in your own world imagining things that are not happening literally. It takes two to tango. You realize that they are not meant for you, they do not even care about you or perhaps they do not even realize the tiny existence of you yet, you are still hoping and hoping. Is that possible? You know the truth, you know what's happening but you still try to assume that 'perhaps something good is happening, perhaps it is just my bizarre feeling'. is that even true? 

Lol why am i like this. Why do i used to thinking about this stuff. Bet it is too early for me. But you know, I cannot resist it. And i cannot fathom my own feeling at all. It is acidic and dangerous. Like no one could play with it. Guess i should be sleeping/studying right now. Sorry everyone. Wallahualam.

Dec 2, 2016



Hello everyone! Thanks for reading my entry. I appreciate it a lot. Believe me, I'm truly not a good writer. So...... you can see it when you read mine. Lol, anyway, i was so busy back at those days before. I had tons of tests and assignments, and presentations and yet, I still procrastinated a lot. By watching k-dramas and went for a harry potter marathon. Screw myself.

Nonetheless, i feel like i wanna share with you about my experience in dealing with some people who are so typical saying stupid stuffs and gibbering way too much. Well, of course it's about my study here. How do i deal with this sorta people etc. 

It all starts with the term 'course' or 'program'. You see here, I'm in Bioscience program in which it is called sains hayat in malay. Perhaps this was just our destiny to be sorted into this program. Yup, my mistake because i chose carelessly last year (because i'm not a-lab-kinda-person) when the upu application came out but i feel grateful of course to be given this course. But, it is all different here. The students itself (some of them, not all. but in general, yep) claim that biosc is such a quite low standard among all the science courses like we stoop quite low. Ok, i know it is not true at all, but deep inside, it hurts my heart like you know, when people said that, 'omg i rather take this course instead of biosc' or 'biosc is my last choice'. Yup, that kind of words. Who on earth doesnt feel offended about it? 

Hello gurl, you are talking while im standing here beside you, listening to every word that you spill out. *sigh* dont you know how to respect people. As if im not listening, or i dont give a damn about you , judging my course. It is offensive as hell. And here, Biosc is the only course that will not be having any interview. Yea, all courses including the 3 critical courses, nursing and allied health science. I dont care about the interview, but it feels like biosc isnt important at all. Im not saying biosc is a bad course, no. But i loathe it a lot when people make an assumption that this course is not good. Okay, up to you. Your choice right. 

I dont know if a person could say such thing to a friend, but i wont. Do think before you speak. I dont even care about the level or standard of all the courses here. And because of that, you dont have to make a comparison btw them. I mean, please and please be matured as you're already 18. Thanks.

Well, people will say whatever they want to say, but me, or you or anyone else (who experiences this just like me) will not give a single damn about it. Keep on fighting and pray to God, that we will be given barakah for seeking ilm, a halal ilm, and of course good grades, and last but not least, a good profession. Ameen. 

Nov 19, 2016

Homesick???? Yea

Assalamualaikum to all of ya!

It has been two weeks since i started my second sem, and it doesnt feel like home at all. Anybody can feel me?? Well, it is for the first time for me to feel really homesick which is TODAY, this morning. It's quite absurd.

You know why? Because ive never felt homesick in this semester, yet. So, when i felt that this morning, i thought i wanna go home, on the dot. 

What was i thinking? When i woke up, i felt a stranger vibe crept into my mind and it felt like, i missed home. really bad. Have you ever felt that? That feeling when you wake up, you just wanna wake up to your own bedroom. Well i felt that. And then, my mind quickly goes to my mom and I read my whatsapp conversation after that. And then i came across my family's whatsapp group, my mom texted me something about ''haa takde sape nak layan along''. (which is a yes because no one replied me???!!! why hello? this is kak long okay). So, when i read that, lagi la rasa nak menangis!! 

K i know i was being very childish because a small matter. But, honestly i missed my home, my hommies and i missed ipoh. Where i could eat anything, i can go anywhere. Here??? We got only hutan. Thank you.