Back at it again

Hi guys. I am super duper tired  as I was just back from tennis training. Guess what? I joined this year’s inter batch game again...... And also, I realized that I suck at playing it. I guess it just isn’t my forte. Just now, I played so bad like a total newbie. You know what did I feel just now? It was so heartbreaking as it didn’t turn out well. I felt so sad and I wanted to cry out loud. I felt like a burden to them. I’m so scared for the upcoming game. God knows how nervous and embarrassed I am. I don’t know what else could I do to improve myself. But yea, imagine that I haven’t played for like a year and then I made a bad comeback. Lol I highkey think that I shouldn’t join at the first place. I should just give this chance to other person. Oh well I think I’m just gonna cry for the rest of the night and tomorrow morning, I’ll be back training. Till then. Brb *crying.