Yeah you say you're just a friend.
Yea you say youre just a friend.
A part in 'say youre just a friend' by Austine Mahone.
HI!!!! I already finished my trial. And the result was okay. Not so good and not bad at all. I mean, sbp papers were quite tough, nope really tough! But, thats not the barrier on getting an A+. Just, just approximately 45 days left to reach the actual test. Im gobsmacked.
So...I guess i should stop writing and back to the track. BYE.
Sep 19, 2015
Jun 26, 2015
My Very First One in '15
Thank God it's weekend.
Cause you know, for the students, weekend is so heaven. Heaven on earth. Yea, salam ramadhan kareem. :)
How i wish i could spend the entire ramadhan at home. Sadly, just left approximately 130 days for me to be in that school. After this, no more school atmosphere. I'm gobsmacked and scared too... Im scared of those challenging tough life after school life. Life, is still a life. Still as complicated as differentiation in Addmaths. InsyaAllah straight a's would absolutely be mine if i work hard for it. Ganbatte for me!
As today was my first tarawikh at home, so i felt kinda excited!!!!! Yea, please take note that when we performed our tarawikh in Seratas, it was scorching hot and everytime after end of two rakaah, i have to wipe the sweats there will be sweat stains on my telekung, and everyone will be yucks. So, this time, even in a surau, they still have air-cond. It was a relief. So, this time, just me, myself and I. LOL no, there were my 2 sisters and my only little brother which he is only 10 but his body got him like seven. Unlike me, my friends insisted that i had gigantism. Sorry babe, it was hell rude but i dont mind at all because you all got dwarfism right? So, when we girls entered the women part, the aunties all stared at us. Yea new face, new body, they must be so wondering who are these specky sisters.
Some would think that im a friendly one. Honestly, YES. Even with the makciks, i could set the conversation on fire. One of them kept asking us this that and those. So, i answered everything. There was one part that she asked about menantu and so on. Lol I barely knew her..... I know it was a kinda joke. So, i didnt mind at all as well. But there was one thing which was slightly different with the way we pray in seratas. As everyone knows, we should stand in the saf as close as possible so that there is gonna be no boundary and spaces between us. No satan could even interupt. Sadly, what i found in the surau, the spaces were too obvious.They didnt even care to cover the spaces. I wondered, was it really 'sah'?
Frankly, i didnt feel much comfortable with that. So there was one girl, beside me. I dont know whether shes younger or older but she looked younger than me. After the first 2 rakaah, she asked me to move away a bit because she had a real struggle sitting during tahyatul akhir. And... what was that. Isnt it we're supposed to pray as close as we could. Uh, so i just smiled and made a bizarre face.
I swear at that time, all i thought about was my boarding school. I miss praying in the surau, lmao it has just been 5 hours since i left the school and ill be back on this sunday. Stupid plan but i have to obey it. Pre-doom's day is coming oh yeah.
At about 10.15 we waited for mama to fetch us. but sadly, she was not coming at all. It was so awkward and i decided to walk home :D so we walked ok. 200 metres with the high bushes next to us. It was kinda spookie. You know we're not supposed to be there. But we did it of course. Just in the nutshell, i felt so lethargic today, tomorrow and forever. For God sake, leave me alone.
Cause you know, for the students, weekend is so heaven. Heaven on earth. Yea, salam ramadhan kareem. :)
How i wish i could spend the entire ramadhan at home. Sadly, just left approximately 130 days for me to be in that school. After this, no more school atmosphere. I'm gobsmacked and scared too... Im scared of those challenging tough life after school life. Life, is still a life. Still as complicated as differentiation in Addmaths. InsyaAllah straight a's would absolutely be mine if i work hard for it. Ganbatte for me!
As today was my first tarawikh at home, so i felt kinda excited!!!!! Yea, please take note that when we performed our tarawikh in Seratas, it was scorching hot and everytime after end of two rakaah, i have to wipe the sweats there will be sweat stains on my telekung, and everyone will be yucks. So, this time, even in a surau, they still have air-cond. It was a relief. So, this time, just me, myself and I. LOL no, there were my 2 sisters and my only little brother which he is only 10 but his body got him like seven. Unlike me, my friends insisted that i had gigantism. Sorry babe, it was hell rude but i dont mind at all because you all got dwarfism right? So, when we girls entered the women part, the aunties all stared at us. Yea new face, new body, they must be so wondering who are these specky sisters.
Some would think that im a friendly one. Honestly, YES. Even with the makciks, i could set the conversation on fire. One of them kept asking us this that and those. So, i answered everything. There was one part that she asked about menantu and so on. Lol I barely knew her..... I know it was a kinda joke. So, i didnt mind at all as well. But there was one thing which was slightly different with the way we pray in seratas. As everyone knows, we should stand in the saf as close as possible so that there is gonna be no boundary and spaces between us. No satan could even interupt. Sadly, what i found in the surau, the spaces were too obvious.They didnt even care to cover the spaces. I wondered, was it really 'sah'?
Frankly, i didnt feel much comfortable with that. So there was one girl, beside me. I dont know whether shes younger or older but she looked younger than me. After the first 2 rakaah, she asked me to move away a bit because she had a real struggle sitting during tahyatul akhir. And... what was that. Isnt it we're supposed to pray as close as we could. Uh, so i just smiled and made a bizarre face.
I swear at that time, all i thought about was my boarding school. I miss praying in the surau, lmao it has just been 5 hours since i left the school and ill be back on this sunday. Stupid plan but i have to obey it. Pre-doom's day is coming oh yeah.
At about 10.15 we waited for mama to fetch us. but sadly, she was not coming at all. It was so awkward and i decided to walk home :D so we walked ok. 200 metres with the high bushes next to us. It was kinda spookie. You know we're not supposed to be there. But we did it of course. Just in the nutshell, i felt so lethargic today, tomorrow and forever. For God sake, leave me alone.
Jun 6, 2015
Out for a week ssup
- Powerbank /
- Powder /
- Lipbalm /
- Socks /
- Telekung /
- Fake eye lashes X
- Matte Lipstick X
- High Heels Stilettos X
- Pure Seduction VS /
- Sneakers /
- Wig X
- Luggage X
- Backpack /
- Earphone /
- Homework //
- Paper Towns ( just in case ) /
- Intelligence /
- Dignity /
- Weakness X
You know what guys? I dont even ready for this. And mom said 'okay we're out for a week. pack your things. bring your homework too. just in case you will be real fatigue on saturday. and on sunday honey you'll be back home. i mean your real home.' residential school. is. so. exciting. i. cant. wait.
it is 'change'. not 'chains'. nick jonas is mine.
Here. Let me tell you guys.
okay. A person who is being friendly saying 'hi' and all those simplest yet littlest things, a person who's being politely asking something hilarious. well that person is called 'tiny little desperate'. now can you explain it to me?
what an absurd mentality of some adults nowadays. come on guys. Being friendly is not that flirting kinda way. youre just being too overthinking. he/she didnt have any hidden point on being friendly to you. im telling you here because ive gone through this for a few times.
your overthinking just keeps us away beneath. pop. it's just gone. look. im trying to break the awkwardness of us. So, let me just being kinda extroverted just to make sure that we're super fine. now are you fine? nope. go die. okay pls be alive back.
just, sometimes, i know that you're trying to express 'babe, no offense' 'bruh dont get me wrong' 'lol just kidding'. But your 'just kidding' is way true. you did say no offense but i found it's an offensive way on 'steps to avoid puteri'.
#1 how to avoid puteri
#2 i have to avoid puteri
#3 she is super clingy. i must ignore her.
taraaa. trust me, you could be a well-known author one day. THE CLINGY PUTERI (bestseller bruh).
Listen. People do change right. But why? Why did they act differently to me. stupid isnt it. lol obviously, i felt like youre a stranger to me. the boundary. isnt it too wide open? me >>>>> you. too big. just stop being a stranger please guys. i dont know who're the 'guys'. but if you feel tht youre a part of the 'tryna-be-stranger-dude', pls i urge you to staph. just STAPH. its hell obnoxious..
yeah i despair somehow. i cant find the sincerity in yours. how i trust you, i mean you were so genuine when we're good. i didnt say that we're not good now. we're just ________ zero chemistry. im perplexed somehow.
I hate to see people changing for no reasons. and i dont know the reasons too. and you didnt tell me the reasons to. you must hv at least 13 reasons why to change. AT LEAST. perhaps im too gullible. sucks. being kind to people is so freaking.. i dont know. you might think tht im such a cynic but thats the way how people treat me sometimes. it's normal right. isnt it? lol this isnt a hostility in cyber.
one more, stop being a wholly stranger to me. youre boring me. and i hate that. so please. stop making my temper tantrums to explode. holla.
okay. A person who is being friendly saying 'hi' and all those simplest yet littlest things, a person who's being politely asking something hilarious. well that person is called 'tiny little desperate'. now can you explain it to me?
what an absurd mentality of some adults nowadays. come on guys. Being friendly is not that flirting kinda way. youre just being too overthinking. he/she didnt have any hidden point on being friendly to you. im telling you here because ive gone through this for a few times.
your overthinking just keeps us away beneath. pop. it's just gone. look. im trying to break the awkwardness of us. So, let me just being kinda extroverted just to make sure that we're super fine. now are you fine? nope. go die. okay pls be alive back.
just, sometimes, i know that you're trying to express 'babe, no offense' 'bruh dont get me wrong' 'lol just kidding'. But your 'just kidding' is way true. you did say no offense but i found it's an offensive way on 'steps to avoid puteri'.
#1 how to avoid puteri
#2 i have to avoid puteri
#3 she is super clingy. i must ignore her.
taraaa. trust me, you could be a well-known author one day. THE CLINGY PUTERI (bestseller bruh).
Listen. People do change right. But why? Why did they act differently to me. stupid isnt it. lol obviously, i felt like youre a stranger to me. the boundary. isnt it too wide open? me >>>>> you. too big. just stop being a stranger please guys. i dont know who're the 'guys'. but if you feel tht youre a part of the 'tryna-be-stranger-dude', pls i urge you to staph. just STAPH. its hell obnoxious..
yeah i despair somehow. i cant find the sincerity in yours. how i trust you, i mean you were so genuine when we're good. i didnt say that we're not good now. we're just ________ zero chemistry. im perplexed somehow.
I hate to see people changing for no reasons. and i dont know the reasons too. and you didnt tell me the reasons to. you must hv at least 13 reasons why to change. AT LEAST. perhaps im too gullible. sucks. being kind to people is so freaking.. i dont know. you might think tht im such a cynic but thats the way how people treat me sometimes. it's normal right. isnt it? lol this isnt a hostility in cyber.
one more, stop being a wholly stranger to me. youre boring me. and i hate that. so please. stop making my temper tantrums to explode. holla.
Jun 4, 2015
LIST OF SONGS THAT YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO-IF NOT THEN YOU'RE BORING ME
- FIGHT SONG-RACHEL PLATTEN
- 19 YOU & ME-DAN & SHAY
- HALO-ANE BRUN
- TODAY-WILLAMETTE STONE
- AUTOMATIC-MIRANDA LAMBERT
- GRAVITY-SARA BAREILLES
- LOVE ME LIKE YOU DO-ELLIE GOULDING (i bet you've watched 50 shades uh-uh-)
- ALL I WANT-KODALINE
- SEE YOU AGAIN-WIZ KHALIFA
- JEALOUS-NICK JONAS
- CHAINS-NICK JONAS
- IF YOU LEAVE ME NOW-CHICAGO
- PHOTOGRAPH-ED SHEERAN
- LITTLEST THINGS-LILY ALLEN
- THE A TEAM-ED SHEERAN
- OUTSIDE-ELLIE GOULDING
- REPLAY-ZENDAYA
- I DO ADORE-MINDY GLEDHIL
- THINKING OUT LOUD-ED SHEERAN (dont tell me if you dont know this one. dont ever talk to me-not until you give me ed's album)
May 31, 2015
sigh
I'll let you set the pace
Cause im not thinking straight
tell me im lame. i dont care.
I was home approx at 4 yesterday. 4 weeks been tormented with loads of works and killer papers yep they were killing me drastically. I got just 2 or 3 more test before the big one. spooky right? I never thought that ill embark this phase. I mean i didnt realise that ive been moving through a year of stupendous pains. i was in pain. 2014 was a really tough year for me. there were too much of new stuff that i had to adapt. But i did it. ongrats (short cute shortform for congratulations)
this is not a form of sigh. sigh. sigh. i hate when people tell me to not to complain whereas i just told them about my 'exciting' life out there and all they say is just stop complaining can ya.
mengeluh okay. tak mengeluh pun. nak cakap je. too much of judgement ke ko yang tengah dalam phase psychic ni. lol well i dont have much to say just HOME IS THE BEST PLACE AFTER ALL walaupun selalu gaduh dengan budak2 kat rumah ni. whatever they never tell me to shut up unlike youuuuuu bye
May 2, 2015
I wrote this on 19th March just fyi
Bismilahirrahmanirahim.
So, i guess its already 12 and im sitting here like heck waiting for an internet connection but nayy. mom shutted off the wifi for a month?! and she asked us to subscribe internet plan in our smartphones. The heck is that i dont have one so bye.. You want to know the funniest part? Im writting now in notepad because of no internet connection. So, you would be shock if you see this post published on the wrong time. yea, wrong timing.
I feel like ive just unpacked my stinky stuff and now is already thursday? fk that. smh. fk is freak kid. or you assume that its the bad word. yeah. i was just cursing. sorry. f-u-c-k? is that the correct spelling? im innocent idk. seriously, im not writting a double meaning post so, that f-u-c-k is not what i meant. SERIOUSLY. im so genuine. thanks again. welcome. no biggie. my pleasure. UH i hate my life..
Im scared that i will not pass my physics, bio, and chemistry. im not so confident with my addmaths but my trust in sir mano.. ha ha ha. kinda. the fact that i never failed my addmaths paper so i think its the best cure for my doubt. i mean no doubt, insyaAllah. So far, my modmaths and history paper were good. i never thought that i would get so excellent in those killer subjects (not so killing but they are all killing me slowly). could i get applause? ok lets play hide and clap.
my life in 5 suria ( which they call the kelas langit followed by kelas bumi, kerak bumi and so on). I dont know. im not so happy. and im not too sad. i have my best buddies to gossip with but i cant find the sincerity in socializing with them (except my girls). well maybe yes and maybe no. i found tht im lack of chemistry between some of the guys or gals. idk pls help me. i sit at the back of the class with the sleepyhead girls so that is soooo acceptable. we make jokes, we laugh, we do gossip, so dont you ever call us _the passive girls behind_ whatever. yes, there were some guys calling us that way. it was stupid seriously. your mentality is beneath your existence. or you never exist now tell me that. idiot la you.
do you have a problem with your whatsapp contacts? well i do!!! a lot. its my luck that ive no internet connection that they cant contact me through social media but i do have hotspot partner. twehee. so, i guess there is no excuse to not reply my text. i mean blue ticks are hella obvious so no doubt. there are two things:
1) they've seen it but they forgot to reply.
2) they've seen it but they assume that im such the last person in their -the-most-important-person-list-. so, maybe after 2 years ahead, they will keep in view my text, or hella delete it im such that rubbish huh fk that. (i told you fk doesnt mean so bad it is freak kid).
Seriously, everyone!!!?? would you please reply my text. Yass i need attention. im sick of this kinda people who doesnt know how to reply one's text. you better throw away your fking iphone or else give it to me. im just kidding. it is your right to give a reply or not. yeah. im so lame. lame put lame. at school, they call me lame. esp bat! shes the one who i treat as the most freaking stupid gal but shes my babe and i love her. shes kinda short but hv a pair of nice legs (i mean short and beautiful). shes the one who understands me. shes the one who gives me the tips on facing my lad. the perfect thing is shes so genuine. no fake in her life dictionary so fakers go away.ok back to the lazies who dont reply mine. sobs. is there any award for a lone ranger? i would be the winner. sigh.
so just now, we went to mydin mall to buy my rations. and there you go when i was at the counter paying for those things, the woman who was on duty was HELLA WEIRD. she looked at me in a serious way (plus the ghost and horror face she made uh i feel awkward and awful) Shes an indian. so, i was daydreaming about the woman who was in a movie called blabla (shes a ghost and the ghost looked like the cashier alot so i screamed inside). and then i smiled to her, and she didnt smile back and she looked at me for a about 10 seconds with the freaky face she made. and i think she annoyed me somehow. wtf is that holy weird. all i think was i just wanna go home right away and there you come those u-mobile team pursuing me to join the club. lul i was not in the mood bcs i was highly in the mood of that-indian-ghostly-faced-bah.
guess what?!!! last night i was searching for my last years addmaths books and the shelves were kinda messy and im having sore eye because of that plus this left side of mucus runway. (if you get what i mean). and my face is all red. and i cant wait for december. where freedom comes muahahaha (bullshot its miles away) bye. i love you but you dont love me but i want you anyway so if you dont want me, you have to get to me first or else, die die die
im sorry im a lil bit in a depression tonight.. but my love for you (kalau kau nak perasan pun boleh) is hashtag till jannah. Assalamualaikum. :)
So, i guess its already 12 and im sitting here like heck waiting for an internet connection but nayy. mom shutted off the wifi for a month?! and she asked us to subscribe internet plan in our smartphones. The heck is that i dont have one so bye.. You want to know the funniest part? Im writting now in notepad because of no internet connection. So, you would be shock if you see this post published on the wrong time. yea, wrong timing.
I feel like ive just unpacked my stinky stuff and now is already thursday? fk that. smh. fk is freak kid. or you assume that its the bad word. yeah. i was just cursing. sorry. f-u-c-k? is that the correct spelling? im innocent idk. seriously, im not writting a double meaning post so, that f-u-c-k is not what i meant. SERIOUSLY. im so genuine. thanks again. welcome. no biggie. my pleasure. UH i hate my life..
Im scared that i will not pass my physics, bio, and chemistry. im not so confident with my addmaths but my trust in sir mano.. ha ha ha. kinda. the fact that i never failed my addmaths paper so i think its the best cure for my doubt. i mean no doubt, insyaAllah. So far, my modmaths and history paper were good. i never thought that i would get so excellent in those killer subjects (not so killing but they are all killing me slowly). could i get applause? ok lets play hide and clap.
my life in 5 suria ( which they call the kelas langit followed by kelas bumi, kerak bumi and so on). I dont know. im not so happy. and im not too sad. i have my best buddies to gossip with but i cant find the sincerity in socializing with them (except my girls). well maybe yes and maybe no. i found tht im lack of chemistry between some of the guys or gals. idk pls help me. i sit at the back of the class with the sleepyhead girls so that is soooo acceptable. we make jokes, we laugh, we do gossip, so dont you ever call us _the passive girls behind_ whatever. yes, there were some guys calling us that way. it was stupid seriously. your mentality is beneath your existence. or you never exist now tell me that. idiot la you.
do you have a problem with your whatsapp contacts? well i do!!! a lot. its my luck that ive no internet connection that they cant contact me through social media but i do have hotspot partner. twehee. so, i guess there is no excuse to not reply my text. i mean blue ticks are hella obvious so no doubt. there are two things:
1) they've seen it but they forgot to reply.
2) they've seen it but they assume that im such the last person in their -the-most-important-person-list-. so, maybe after 2 years ahead, they will keep in view my text, or hella delete it im such that rubbish huh fk that. (i told you fk doesnt mean so bad it is freak kid).
Seriously, everyone!!!?? would you please reply my text. Yass i need attention. im sick of this kinda people who doesnt know how to reply one's text. you better throw away your fking iphone or else give it to me. im just kidding. it is your right to give a reply or not. yeah. im so lame. lame put lame. at school, they call me lame. esp bat! shes the one who i treat as the most freaking stupid gal but shes my babe and i love her. shes kinda short but hv a pair of nice legs (i mean short and beautiful). shes the one who understands me. shes the one who gives me the tips on facing my lad. the perfect thing is shes so genuine. no fake in her life dictionary so fakers go away.ok back to the lazies who dont reply mine. sobs. is there any award for a lone ranger? i would be the winner. sigh.
so just now, we went to mydin mall to buy my rations. and there you go when i was at the counter paying for those things, the woman who was on duty was HELLA WEIRD. she looked at me in a serious way (plus the ghost and horror face she made uh i feel awkward and awful) Shes an indian. so, i was daydreaming about the woman who was in a movie called blabla (shes a ghost and the ghost looked like the cashier alot so i screamed inside). and then i smiled to her, and she didnt smile back and she looked at me for a about 10 seconds with the freaky face she made. and i think she annoyed me somehow. wtf is that holy weird. all i think was i just wanna go home right away and there you come those u-mobile team pursuing me to join the club. lul i was not in the mood bcs i was highly in the mood of that-indian-ghostly-faced-bah.
guess what?!!! last night i was searching for my last years addmaths books and the shelves were kinda messy and im having sore eye because of that plus this left side of mucus runway. (if you get what i mean). and my face is all red. and i cant wait for december. where freedom comes muahahaha (bullshot its miles away) bye. i love you but you dont love me but i want you anyway so if you dont want me, you have to get to me first or else, die die die
im sorry im a lil bit in a depression tonight.. but my love for you (kalau kau nak perasan pun boleh) is hashtag till jannah. Assalamualaikum. :)
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